Apex Coture Magazine : Just Being Marie: Living Life the Non-Traditional Way

Our entire life we always think that we have to live life in a certain in order to feel like we are on the RIGHT track. Over my journey, I have learned that there is no right or wrong way to live. We were conditioned to think that we have to get a diploma, go to college, get a career, then fall in love, get married and then start a family. If that's the case my ass is way off. Right after graduating from high school I had my first child at 19 and two years later my second child. I didn't have a degree or a career at the time. So I use to always feel that getting married was next for me because I had two children, but it didn't work that way.

By the time I reached age 26, I felt like my whole life was just thrown away in a dumpster. I quit Nursing School, I walked away from my online clothing business, I walked away from a 10-year relationship, I let go of old friendships that were no longer serving me, and most importantly I left my family behind in Michigan to move to Georgia. Now here I am down in Georgia with my two children far away from home. I have no job, not clear on what direction I want to go in right now, and I pretty much spent all of my savings. And you ask me what can possibly be on my mind? Besides doing Yoga and Meditation every day, what could I possibly be thinking about? What type of business am I going to start next? Nope! Where do I see myself in the next few years? Nope! Come up with long term and short term goals for these next couple of months? Nope! Am I thinking about what type of job I can get before my money runs out? Hell No! Am I thinking about going back to school to get my degree? Well a little bit, but NOPE! I'm thinking about love.

Yeah, that's right love. A woman who is pretty much at a crossroads of her life is only thinking about love. Even when I try to focus my attention on something else my heart always goes back to love. Yes, I must say I have fallen in love and I didn't have any plans of doing it. I just moved to Georgia and I was always the type of woman who made sure I was always together before I found love. In America, we call it "having our shit together." Here's the reality, we will never have our so-called shit together. Life always happens.

We always want to control our lives so we are constantly trying to control every aspect of our life. We don't know how to just go with the flow. As a Yogi, you would think I wouldn't mind falling in love. Then there is my ego that tries to get in my way and tell me about how my life is not together. We can only control our reaction to things, but we can't control what happens to us. We most definitely can't control who we fall in love with and the time we are supposed to fall in love. Everything happens at the right time and at the right moment. We just have to let God do his work and learn to let go of control. I didn't have any plans of falling in love at this time in my life. It's just something that happened.

I wrote this blog to let anyone whoever feels like they aren't worthy of love because of their current situation, that you are worth it. Our situation doesn't define us, we define our situation. There is no specific requirements on love. You don't have to be perfect and you don't have to have a perfect life to experience something truly amazing. When you fall in love with someone that's you falling in love with yourself. Love is a strong drug and its impossible to control. So just go with the flow. Life is a journey you never finish. Don't miss out on your true love and happiness because of society. So just enjoy the ride to everlasting love and happiness.

Namaste